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I was pissed. I scolded him. And I felt guilty few hours later. What kind of shit is this? Sigh. Maybe it was my fault. Maybe I overreacted. But I know if I don't correct him now, one fine day I will explode again. Might as well just tell him what I disliked so that he wouldn't do it again :/ Yea la I'm such an asshole girlfriend. He probably had no idea what was the reason. He just knew that I was mad. Anyway, luckily everything is fine again phew~ I'm trying my best not to argue in this relationship. Oh wells, hopefully we will stay sweet as long as possible. I love him, he loves me. We are happy familyyyyy~~~

It has been two weeks since we're together. I'm still in the process of adapting. Clearly, accepting a new person into your life is not an easy thing. Maybe because I'm so used to being single, doing things alone that kind of thing. Currently, I'm having mixed emotions. I liked him. I really do but now that I've got him, I feel like going back to the days where we're 'just friends'. Aaahhhh I know you wanna slap me. Please tell me it's my hormone problem lol. In the past two weeks, everyday I asked myself did I do the right thing, is it too quick bla bla bla. I'm not the kind of person who looks for short termed relationships. I take this kind of thing seriously. So, it really bothers me a lot whether I've made the right choice or not. Sigh. I know he will treat me really good. Cause I can feel that he really cared about me. Maybe I should try harder. Try harder to adapt to this new life with you. "Maybe I'm not ready but I...

I'm seriously so sick with emotional guys. What is wrong with you? I know you don't have to explain what is wrong to me. But you just don't have to show the emotional side of you. I don't care how you see me, what you think of me ANYMORE because I'm done with you. I just hope you can handle your emotions next time. Have you ever thought your emotions can affect the people around you? Yes, you don't give a damn but other people do give a damn. It seems my sadness has turned into anger. I'm so tired. When everything seems perfect, something has to happen to destroy all the happiness and joy. Maybe my expectation was too high. I'm sorry. Sorry for expecting so much. I shall now put a FULLSTOP to all these rubbish that is happening to me. EXPELL negative people from my life.

I feel so uneasy. I don't know why I'm feeling uneasy. I JUST FEEL UNEASY. I can't sleep I can't concentrate. Shit just got serious. Why is this happening now? Does it really matter to me? What do I want? What can I do? Everything happened like God made. I know right.

First post in 2014! I'm finally home for semester break woohoooo. I know it's a bit too late for new year resolutions lol but I don't have any resolutions, not like I will follow haha. But I do have a wishlist. A list of things that I wish to achieve/get in 2014.. 1. Save more money. 2. Study harder than 2013. 3. Get A's in exams. 4. Get A's in socca. 5. Be a more carefree and happy person. 6. Super lucky in everything I do lol. I always think that luck is very important in everything. Exam, opportunity etc. 7. Maintain 46kg haha. 8. Be a nicer person. 9. Peace. 10. A***** wakaka. I think there are alot more haha. But the most important thing that I wished for 2014 is good health and happiness for my parents, family, friends and myself. What is life if you're not healthy and happy? May 2014 be a good year for you, you, you and YOU. I love all of you <3

Seriously, WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU??!! I'm being nice doesn't mean you can be rude to me. I'm being nice doesn't mean I enjoyed sarcarsm very much. Most important, I'm being nice doesn't mean you can STEP ON MY HEAD AND JUDGE MY FAMILY MEMBERS. Are you really that ignorant or no one actually taught you about manners? You wanna tease me, make me feel stupid, being rude to me like I owed you etc, FINE. Anyhow I'm waiting for that one day that I will explode. But who the hell are you to say my brother is lame. And my brother didn't even do anything to you. You stupid ar? From today onwards, you're going to be a piece of shit to me. Why do you wanna downgrade yourself liddat? Why you wanna make people hate your attitude? After all the conversations that we had, I can only conclude that you are like those ah beng ah seng out there, so no standard. Yes, you might be a smart person. But what's the point of being smart when you have attit...