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Well, gonna change my blogging style. I hope you realized what I've changed. Mock exam is just around the corner and yet I've not fully prepare myself. Everyday waste time waste time waste time. Slack slack slack. FB FB FB. Twit twit twit. No dating. What a sad thing. Currently listening to Keri Hilson's Pretty girls rock. Sorry people I know I'm crapping. Talking stuffs that are not related to each other. Forgive me. Lately, so much has happened. Recently I realized that I'm actually a super tolerable person, super good tempered, which makes everyone think I easy to be bullied, keep stepping me, step step step, don't even know how painful I am. Come on, do I deserve all these? Well, I shouldn't say I deserve it or not. Actually I exaggerated a little bit. I wasn't bullied. Just felt that everyone around me is not caring bout my feeling. I smiled doesn't mean I'm alright. Deep inside, I'm bleeding like hell, but who knows? I taught you g...

Hey peeps, my blog is dying. Not gonna let her die so Imma update a lil bit. Hi how are you guys? So far so good? Trial exam is coming soon. I'm doing nothing but sitting here, blogging. Well I know I suck but that's me you know? The Procrastinator. Anyway I'm gonna study, no matter how. Lately, I have been watching 'The Secret'. Well, I bet my high school friends will know what it is. Helena, remember? Haha. Anyway it is something worth to watch. Some might think it's ridiculous because most of the time, the secret doesn't work on them. Right here I can tell you, it's not ridiculous at all. Because what those people said in the secret is very true. To be loved, you must be able to give love. Same goes to if you wanna be hated, ignored, complained or what so ever, go ahead, complain more. It's not hard to use the secret. One word. POSITIVE. Well, those people might have exaggerated a lil bit. Haha no offence anyway. Still, I agreed that when y...

She is captivating and fascinating. She makes a man feel like a man because of her need for a protector and leader. She is charming, soft and feminine. She can see right through a man and she is not easy to fool. So man better be straight with her and not lead her on. Instead of confronting him, she will simply disappear. She needs to nurture and will give the man orders, but only for his own good. She will make sure he is eating properly and getting enough sleep. Sort of like a mother nurturing a child. What she needs in return is a man to protect and cherish her, make her feel like she's needed and loved. She needs patience and sympathy. Don't make fun or tease and definitely do not reject her harshly because she can't stand rejection. She is extremely romantic and will lose herself in the relationship. The Pisces woman is the ultra feminine nurturer, the ideal woman for the right man.

I felt distance between us. The end.

If jumping off a building can solve the problem, I guess I would have jumped. Every time when I think of how bad I am in studies, I feel like crying, slapping myself tight tight. If slapping plus crying can make me smarter, I don't mind crying everyday till my eyes are swollen and slapping myself till my face is red. I used to tell myself that genes make me like that. I have been putting all the blames on my genes. =.= It is so true that I'm a jack of all traits but master of none. I know this a little bit and I know that a little bit. My mom used to say that I carry a lot of knives with me but none of them are sharp. What is the point of having so many knives when non of them are sharp? If you have one good and sharp knife with you, you can even kill a person. And those who have many knives and all are sharp, those are really masters! I hope I can at least pick a knife that I have and start sharpening it. But which one? It seems that all the knives that I carry are too blunt, ...

I feel sorry for myself because I'm such a vulnerable person. Even small things can bring me down. I just hope one day I will be able to understand the phrase 'Take it easy'. Life can be very simple. Doing things that you love. Ignoring things that you hate. STOP THINKING NONSENSE. Recently I'm in misery. Please, stop singing that song. I try to forget but I can't. This issue is driving me crazy. And, I don't remember how many times I cried because of this. The reasons are not important. As long as I still carry a smile on face, there's nothing to be worried about. Don't ask me what happened because you will only make me recall the pain. Yea, I was hurt so badly and I need time to forget. I will forget, I promise.

Once a day: Laugh together Talk to each other for half an hour about anything and everything Hugs. Once a week: Sit in silence together for a while, somewhere where both of you love. Give each other a break, go separate ways and spend a few hours apart. Once a month: Watch sunrise Give each other some surprises. Once a year: Celebrate anniversaries Holiday separately because missed people become closer. Once a lifetime: Get married with the one you loved Make it through a major relationship obstacle Become parents.