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Can I get to know you better? I want to know so much about you. I want to know what kind of person you are. What kind of person are you? Good or bad? I don't know.... I feel so defeated. Why do I become so weak when it comes to this kind of matter? Why do I become so not wise? Just for this time Huilin.. Just this time, be wiser. Think what is more important to you. Think about your priority. Don't be so easily defeated. You can do better than this. Seriously I'm tired of guessing this and that. I should let go this burden,right? I shouldn't let this ruin any of my lovely days. After all, I'm not the one taking control of everything. God, Please guide me and bring me to a place that I'm supposed to be at. Thank you...

It is easy to ask other people to tryyyyyyy but so hard for ourselves to do it. Human nature I guess. Is it really that hard to fall for person? I don't know. But I think if it's the right person, yea you fall so fast, so hard. They said when the person you love, loves you in return, that's the best thing that can happen in life. Very true indeed. Cause this thing is like a lottery you know. You thought so easy to kena lottery meh, right? I questioned myself so many times. Am I doing the right thing. Friends said I'm not. They say I should retreat before anything happens. Quite true also. I seriously got no other intentions. I just wanna help. Trying my luck to find out the problem and fix it. But the problem is, I'm not the person who is facing the problem. So I shouldn't be so busybody also, right? Yea I think I should 'siam' before things get worst. Conflicts between friends start with misunderstandings and I never want that to happen in my life. So ...

Seriously what I think is, a guy MUST be smart. Smart not as in look smart only. Smart as in clever, intelligent, high EQ and IQ etc.. What is the point of looking smart outside but inside is grass, right?? Kayyy I'm mean I'm mean. Guys, say whatever you wanna say. Girls are all like that. We want smart guy, handsome guy, rich guy bla bla shit. But let me tell you now, rich or handsome, ugly or poor, INTELLIGENCE is still the most important. Even though this wouldn't sound nice but I still wanna say not so smart guys memang will potong markah one no matter how. When I say smart, I don't mean like those erm nerds. Every paper 100%. Nahhhhh. Smart as in smart. Smart can be in many ways. That's why people always say each and everyone has their own talent. And when you're smart, you don't go around telling people you're smart. Outsiders will automatically feel it whether you're smart or not. lol what im talking. So yea, my conclusion is, people will know...

"Falling so hard, so fast this time." Huilin you really damn stupid lar. Don't know how to learn from mistakes. I don't know how to say but I gets upset so easily because of you. Just a picture can ruin my day. Just a text message can make me so emotional. Why you no like other guys? So predictable. I don't know what you're thinking but somehow I find that you're so different from other guys. Is it good that you're different? I am having a conflict of emotions. I don't know what I want. I can't sit still. I must voice out my feelings here. All I can ask is, don't give me false hope. Please and thank you.

Mid term exam in 2 days time. Oh lord. So much to cover but so little time. No matter how consistent I am, it's still impossible to finish. That is why they say, medic student never get more than 5 hours of sleep. But I'm sleeping more than that everyday. Which means I'm totally H-O-P-E-L-E-S-S. Whatever lar. I'm going to be one of the 'black horse' lol lol lol. I am very grateful that it is MCQ. Which means I can 'tikam'. why did i use tikam? tsk hahaha. I saw my neighbour cried, which increased my guiltiness. Oh lord, what am I doing? Why I'm not worried like my friends. I mean, I should be worried right? Alright whatever it is, I promised myself and everyone that I'll finish in 5 years. I WILL SURVIVE!!!!!!! Sometimes I am really annoyed by those people who send me loads of link and ask me to click just so they can get money. I know it's just clicking. This shows how materealistic people can be. When they need your help, they'll be lik...

My dear friends! Sorry for not updating you guys. I know it has been long. I've been here for one month plus. So many things happened and I obviously can't mention every single thing. But one thing I must let you all know, I won't be as free as last time. So much to catch up and I can no longer procrastinate. New friends, new environment. Conflicts are unavoidable. I learn to be a more tolerable and forgiving person. In short, become more 'cincai' lar. Don't count so much. Do my own work. Help if someone needs help. Most important, be happy and don't let anything spoil my mood. I still practice 'the secret', no joke. lol. New place, obviously will check out the guys here right. After all I'm a normal girl too. I have my desperate moments too lol joking. Spotted one yang berpotensi but it seems that I'm tepuk tangan sebelah-ing. Sorry for my broken languages. Keep getting false hopes. Very confused too. I can't read guy's mind so I don...

Hello there I'm finally here in Bandung. Cried like a baby before I leave. I know I cant control because, who wants to leave home seriously? Everyone wants to stay near to their parents and family. I guess I'm quickly adapting to the new surrounding. Met new people. Some I've met during the entrance exam. Aaahhh. People said time flies. How soon? How soon can I go back to my mom? Anyway the surrounding is not too bad. Now I just hope my class will start soon so I'll be busy. Time flies the fastest when we're busy haha. Just before I log out, MOM & DAD I MISS YOU! GOR GOR, JIE JIE I MISS YOU ALL! Last but not least, ANSON, JOSHUA & FELIX, I MISS YOU GUYS TOO!